Have you ever felt like something is wrong but you can't quite put your finger on it?
I do. All the time. Some people say it is called masculinity.
Since morning, I have this nagging feeling that something is quite wrong. I set out for the usual classes and lessons but I didn't feel like absorbing any new lessons. So I went for shopping instead. I didn't got all the thing mentioned in the last post but yes, I did managed to get most. I wish I could get all, especially the item no. 11 or 12. I don't mind which one, or if I can bargain, I want both.
Well, I have been thinking. I have always told myself ( and many others ) that I have learned now to not need anyone . But I have been debating myself whether it is really true. I thought about it. Two things I came up with. Yes, I think I have really learned that lesson well. But am I happy? To that question, I don't have a direct answer: I am not unhappy. Does that answer the question? No, it avoids the question altogether; somewhat cleverly.
Maybe I have been lying to myself. Maybe I am trying so hard to convince myself my saying it aloud again and again. Maybe, just maybe, I am a shadow of myself; pretending to be myself; a doppleganger; a pale imitation of what I once was, but no longer is.
Do I need a journey of self discovery? Where are the mountains and the valleys; where is the mountain top that has all the answer?
The Road ever goes on and on...
2 comments:
The question was if i m happy. Ur post kind of sorted my dilemma. I was just not unhappy. Thanks. :)
Sometimes u get the answers to ur most thought-about questions when u least expect them.
@kanupriya
Thanks for visiting.
Yes, sometimes we find answers when we least expect them.
And sometimes, in the quest of an answer, we forget the question.
And in the quest for happiness, we forget how to be happy.
Thanks again.
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