No, I shall not debauch myself to such a low level and run naked shouting Eureka! Eureka! But such is the thing I want to do at the present. For I have come across the thing that I was missing for.
I feel, and hence I am aware. I feel that something has returned to me, which has been denied to me for long, a vital part and hence I am now aware that I am complete.
In the night, peacefully I sleep, for now, its presence make me feel contend . I no longer inquire those intriquing questions, for they are meaning less now. And in the night, my unconcious mind does wander to places that are ...natural.
But what is it that I have found? What makes me so complete.
My-self. I found myself. My long journey has been quite meaningless. I searched everywhere, but in the quest, I forgot to search the most unlikely place: my-self.
In the vain pursuit of knowledge, I had forgotten the absolute truth.
In the search of someone, I had forgotten myself.
In the process of finding happiness, I had forgotten to be happy.
So, it was there all along with me. Absurbly simple, like most quest when you reached your destination. Now, I am contend, and happy, for I have found the long lost me, and I feel complete. I have never loved myself so much before. If Narcissus were in front of me, he would be ashamed of himself; for, he could not have loved himself more so.
But does that mean I am narcissic? I love myself, yes, but I shall not waste myself on my reflection on a clear pool of water. But who knows, if the three sisters of fate thus condemned me to, I shall have no choice but to share the fate of Narcisuss. For I do love myself hopelessly.
15 comments:
It's just beautiful, that you've found yourself after this much of trial. People go into ecstasy after discovering their true selves. I found myself while reading a book. And I'll never forget that moment, ever. And I hope the same for you.
@manish chauhan
Indeed, the joy of discovering oneself again and again is beyond any other joy. And that is happening with me right now. Self discovery is a thing which everybody experience at least once in a life, but when one experience it again and again it is ecstasy beyond ecstasy.
nice to see ur finally content n happy.
And finding yourself....the best part
@desperado
Thank you dhruv. Yes, I am finally contend and happy. For now.
And yes, the discovery has been unexpected but I found myself at last.
hmm...gr8 feeling to stumble upon a blog with so many people who have already FOUND themselves at such a young age. But i belong to the uninitiated grp, hence still in pursuit. Will be grateful if you can reveal what have u found exactly. Are you talking about realizing your full potential. Or are you implying that now you guys have control on ur mind and desires hence better concentration and focus which in turn means better prioritization in real life.
Is it that you have discovered your true desires? or is it that you have settled on a local minima.
Since you have accomplished something for which men have toiled for centuries, and now there should be nothing that you might be looking for, what keeps you alive and kicking every single day?
@linux_shadow
At the outset, I must thank you for brightening my dark blog with your presence. It is such an honour to entertain guest as one like you.
You put forward such an intriguing querry, that to answer it I must allow myself to take some time to think what answer I must give.
I do not pretend that I know all things, for I am far from it. I know much but not all.
I shall try to answer your inquiry in as exact manner as possible.
Are you talking about realizing your full Potential?
That is not what I found. I hardly know what my potentials are. I am still very naive.
Or are you implying that now you guys have control on your mind and desired hence better concentration and focus which in turn means better prioritiztion in real life.
I am afraid, such is not so. My mind wanders at the most inopportune time.
Is it that you have discovered your true desires?
No, it is not that. I am still in the dark what I truly want.
Is it that you have settled on a local minima?
No, I am only human, and such is not capable on me.
Then, if it is not all these, then what is it that I discovered when I found myself?
I do not know. I cannot quite explain. It is like explaining how it felt when you fall in love. I feel like I am complete. Before, I felt like the swift current of fate was sweeping by leaving me tumbling down the path, and I am not fighting agaist it to make my journey more smooth. But now, I no longer feel like that. I feel like I do not care about fate, for I have me and nothing can take that away from me. And that is all I want.
I know I make no sense so far. I have only discovered myself, not the whole absolute truth itself. Right now I am too much in love with myself and much sense has left me in the process.
Hmmm.....
@smilealot
I thank you for dropping by and taking time to read such things as I write.
Yes, people do discover themselves again and again. And our aim should be not to forget what we are.
*Hugs* Congratulations! On achieving the impossible! :)
Take care
@mirage
*Hugs* Thank you Mirage. Some say its impossible but I did it!!
hmmm...strong support to our Indian philosophy..."Aham Brahmasmi." means "I am Brahma." Everything is inside us. We are only the source of happiness. So knowing ourselves is true happiness....keep enjoying
@ in search of joy
After so long a time, I saw someone visiting my old self. Yes, the bramha and I are the one. I am a perfect manifestation of the one power of the lord.
I no longer seek happiness for, it is always with me.
wow
in love wid urself
wat a concept
had never thought abt it.
cool post man !!!
@ajay
Thank you. You can say that was my version of the song of a thornbird. A thornbirn sings the sweetest of a song, more sweet then a nightingale's, but only after it has driven itself into a thorn. After writing that my writer self died. A sad thing. I may never write again.
@luke
Thank you luke. It is indeed a long time since. I am glad you like it. It was the last song of a thornbird. ::points above::
wow!! gr8 achievement..hp it stays wid u frevr n u happy n content :-)
What should be shall be, Milo, for I have no control over what shall be.
And I thank your for your warm wishes
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